walking on sunshine

Friday, April 15, 2005

SYF is finally over. got a silver. a lot of ppl were saying well done. maybe they don't understand. we had *higher aims*.

on 13th april.. sectionals first. very serious. nobody slacked. after that had combine. mr yiau came with chocolates and biscuits. soo nice of him. even prepared a card of his thoughts of every single band member. could see that a lot of effort were put in. after tat mdm jo came to wish us luck. mr chan too. wanted us to bring back a gold. junainah came back. gave everybody a small strip of paper. wishin us luck. many seniors came back too. even before setting off, we were taking pictures in school. feeling happy and confident.

after playing. went down stage. ppl cried. cos didn't perform well. after tat announcement of results. so tensed atmosphere. we were holding hands. praying silently in the heart for a gold. hands were squeezing each other hands. yet "BAND NUMBER 85 AHMAD IBARHIM SECONDARY SCHOOL silver". hands were let loose. laid back. wanted to be strong and accept the fact. but in the end tears started flowing out from the eyes. uncontrollable. very heartache feeling. turned and saw that almost whole band is crying. wanted to tear even more. mr fauzi and yiau hurried came and console. no use. teared even more. further made worse by other bands' cheering. guan han and yee keong cried too. almost everybody. tat scene i will never forget. some other bands were cheering. ours was silence. went back to the bus. saw other band members of other schools. some crying out of happiness or sadness. felt tat i was lost in an unknown world. lik losing my senses. guan han felt the same

went onto the bus. teared again. tinking of the results. the scene. echoing back in my mind. bus was silent. except for crying sound. sadness. went back to school. mr zee said tat we have done well. wanted us to do a cheer. but silence again. unusual of us. obviously still affected by the results. usually will even cheer over the stupidest things. yet nth happened. den decided to cheer the follwing day. but didn't.

~peace out~

10:43 PM